Amy

OK, so I caught up on some of AI tonight. Let me just say me favorites are…hang on, let me look up their names…ok, they don’t have their names up yet. But here they are as I know them.

Chris Daughtry – “Bald Rocker” – reminds me of the guy from Miami Ink – what a cutie!
gray haired guy – seems like he has some sort of issues but the man is talented
famous women’s granddaughter – I didn’t hear her last night so maybe she’s not as good as I remember
blond girl from Gastonia (very close to me) – it worries me that she is so similar to Carrie but I think she will do well

That’s all I can think of now so I guess that’s all that made a big impression (or got the most air).

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I have to teach Sunday School on Sunday and our teacher is the youth pastor. He teaches on Wednesday night to them what he’s going to teach to us the following Sunday. So I went tonight to hear what it was about. I got a lot more than I planned. It was awesome. I got a little bit of my great Sunday morning on Wednesday night. What was so great? Well, he talked about Jesus being baptized and what I realized was how symbolic our baptism is. Baptism shows how we are dead in Christ, get buried and are raised as a new being and that’s what Christ did. He died for us, was buried and then rose again. I’ve known that all my life but it sort of hit me again. I was baptized when I was 12 so it’s been awhile since I’ve really thought about it. And also, the Bible says that after Jesus was baptized God was well-pleased with him. He did nothing but be obedient. Jesus did not need to be baptized but God wanted an example for us and God was pleased when he obeyed. And isn’t that the only thing that God wants from us? That what He is pleased with is us being obedient to Him. He asks for humble servants and when we can be humble enough to do what He wants instead of what we want, He is pleased. And guess what? The good news is He loves us like we love our children and when we obey, it’s the best thing for us! Whew! I hope Sunday is as good as tonight.

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Last night was so much fun!! I added some pictures here http://www.sabennett.com/gallery under Valentine’s Day. Everything went as planned. I loved my outfit even more than I thought I would. Scott liked it lots and was taking pictures even throughout dinner. Sort of embarrassing, but at least I knew he liked it. So Scott brought me tulips to dinner and had the waiter put them in their vase with water. So sweet. I had filet mignon for dinner of course and it was yummy. I even got a (virgin) strawberry daiquiri to drink. We were all stuffed at the end and didn’t even get dessert! We sat around and told funny stories and I’m sure annoying the rest of the guests there. I was laughing so hard I was wiping mascara away on my linen napkin. We were there for over two hours and stopped at Starbuck’s on the way home. Joni was getting tired though so we called it a night when we got back to our house. Even though we didn’t do anything earth-shattering, it was great to get dressed up and eat a dinner without having to feed anyone else. And boy, was it yummy!

So I missed AI last night and most of House!! Ugh! Can catch up on AI tonight hopefully.

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HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY!!!

So today is the big day! Dinner tonight and I can’t wait! I got another tan last night. Which I’m not quite as happy as it turned out this time. I waited until the morning to get a shower and I feel like it’s darker this time. Probably because I had a base tan too but the parts that had started coming off didn’t come out even again, they sort of just laid on top so I still look splotchy in a couple places. Thankfully they are in not too noticeable places.

So I still need to get makeup that matches my face, fingernail polish that goes with my shoes and earrings. So I’m going to Target at lunch.

D has changed her outfit plans like 4 times. Last time I checked she was wearing goucho pants, a “hot” coral colored top and black high heels. Which makes me feel better than the jeans she had once planned to wear. J is wearing jeans though and a cool top. But she just had a baby 4 weeks ago so I’m not about to expect anything else (I didn’t tell this story here I don’t think but they lost their baby with trisomy-13 at 26 weeks last month–so I’m just glad they are getting out).

Lexi has a check-up this morning. Poor thing has to get a shot I think. I’ll be interested to see where she is on the growth charts though.

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Not sure how I feel tonight. Much better than last night I guess. Scott and I went back to the mall this afternoon without the kids. I went and got my hair cut and we decided for Scott to go with me. He made some exchanges and shopped for clothes (woah). He really likes the sweaters I picked out for him yesterday and now he seems actually interested in finding cool clothes–meaning not just jeans and long-sleeved t-shirts and tennis shoes. He actually bought a jacket and pants and Gap. Very unlike him. Anyway, so that was fun again.

We came home because today is IL’s anniversary and we sent them to dinner at a local German restaurant. Scott went to work and Heather came over. We went out to Moe’s which was not too much fun because the line was SO long. Once we sat down it was alright though.

So we decided to brave a couple stores so I could find some shoes for my dress on Tuesday. I had bought some while Scott and I were out but they were $80 and they didn’t wow me which if I’m going to spend $80, they better wow me. So of course, I go to this store that I like to call the hooker store. It’s not really and I think the clothes are cute, but they are definitely clubbing type clothes. And I find THE shoes on sale for $18!! They look awesome with the dress which means I’ve gotten my entire outfit for Tuesday night for $48!! I’m a little worried because I tried the dress on tonight for Heather and she seemed a little shocked at how short the dress was. I have never been one to wear short dresses of any length so I’m already wary of wearing it. But Scott liked it a lot when I tried it on for him so I guess that is all that matters. I don’t want to look trashy though. Just hot. Hopefully it will come out that way.

I chatted with G tonight. He had mentioned that he wanted someone to buy him some software at Sam’s and my parents were going tonight so I asked him. It was a short, easy, to the point conversation. And it was good to be able to talk to him, just as friends. It actually seemed normal.

I got all my cleaning done last night. I really need to start doing that every Friday night. It was so nice to wake up Saturday and the only thing I needed to do was vacuum and do laundry. I know flylady recommends taking your Saturdays off from cleaning. I really need to do some flinging, etc.

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I completely forgot to mention Scott and I went out to “lunch” yesterday. We actually had Mom watch the kids, had lunch at home and then went shopping for him an outfit for Tuesday’s dinner. He bought a shirt and tie, two sweaters, a blazer and two pair of shoes. Definitely the most dress stuff we’ve bought him probably in years. I went and exchanged a pair of jeans which by the way I got the wrong thing AGAIN so I have to go back. But we got some Starbucks at the mall and I made my hair appt for today. We had SUCH a good time. I can’t explain it. We held hands walking through the mall. We rolled our eyes at each other when the guy at Belk was taking forever. We helped each other with the packages. He made me laugh on the way up there. It was like old times yesterday. For just 2 hours, I forgot about everything and it was just me and him and it felt really good.

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I hate for all these posts to be so self-centered, egotistical and shallow, but I have to write or I might explode. I’m in one of those blah, staring, get-nothing done kind of moods. So I said that my tan went over “well” at work yesterday. I didn’t mention that G said absolutely nothing on the matter, not even to chime in on the banter amongst the other men. He never said anything about it snowing yesterday. He said nothing about everything. He barely even looked at me. OK, this is what I wanted, right? I even mentioned to Scott that he had not said a word. I never asked him what he thought, scared of what he might say. He knew I had gotten one on Monday. It even crossed my mind that it wasn’t what he expected and I looked crappy and he was avoiding saying anything to not hurt my feelings. So I left it alone. Today, he writes me a simple email basically saying someone had asked him about how I looked yesterday (apparently it IS the talk of the office today according to G) and part of his response was that I was more gorgeous than normal, so much so that he couldn’t even talk to me.

Woah.

That will send you for a tailspin. Given that the past couple of days I’ve been thinking that he was totally and completely over me, that was sort of a shocker. I’m back into that torn phase. I so want to talk to him. My ego wants fed. My romantic inclinations wants to build another fairytale conversation and situation. My curiosity wants satisfied. It was my whiff of alcohol to an alcoholic. And of course Scott is working nights this entire weekend and G told me he has no plans for the weekend. Very difficult not to reach out.

So Scott and I get into this drawn out conversation about how what G and I say is wrong only because of G and I’s history and what we say would be no big deal if it was between, say, A & I at work. And he finally gave me a big hit in the stomach when he said it was like if him and AW had a conversation like we did. AW was a girl that grew up in the house beside him. They kissed “in secret” several times as teenagers. She liked him. She showed up at his window at night when we were dating trying to show him her recent breast reduction scar in her nightgown. She left her window open while she changed clothes and he was walking his dog. I left a bad message for her in a mutual friend’s yearbook (yes, I know this was high school!!) and we had it out. It’s been awkward ever since. I was extremely jealous I guess you could say. I knew that Scott wouldn’t leave me for her but I really didn’t like her coming on to him. I can’t tell you how painful that time was for me. I lost weight, had stomach issues, cried over it. It was the drama at the time. And then when Scott said it was like that. That if she came around today and came on to him and he enjoyed it and wanted to talk to her and did talk to her. Met her for coffee and paid for it. How would I feel? Does it make a difference that they had a “history”? That hurt. It would matter and it would matter a lot. She couldn’t say the same thing that another girl could. I would watch over his shoulder every time he sent her an email. I wouldn’t trust her. And that was hard to hear. Are G&I the same? Am I making Scott feel as crappy? Do I want to hear it in the same way as he enjoyed hearing stuff from her? Are G&I more than that? If so, that is even worse than AW & him and that makes me feel even worse.

And I’m back to feeling frustrated because simple conversation don’t seem to be so simple. I still have to restrain myself sometimes and conversations are not as “easy” as they once were. Why can’t it just be a conversation and that’s it???? Why does it have to be inappropriate to say certain things when if someone else said it it would be no big deal? Ugh!!!

Our radio station had a interesting segment on Office Spouses.

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So the airbrushed tan caused some drama at work yesterday. Didn’t really think of it but apparently the thought of a girl airbrushing me while nude is a good thing to guys and the tan apparently looked good. I was so embarrassed I couldn’t even finish my Krispy Kreme doughnut at breakfast. I didn’t even say anything about it but the guys started asking me questions and like a doe-doe honestly answered. So yeah. Apparently a tan is a good thing, people. It’s still pretty dark even though it’s only supposed to last 5-7 days. Wondering if I need to get another one on Monday.

It actually snowed here yesterday morning. The neighbor’s roof was almost covered with a layer when I went to work. But it was short-lived and wasn’t even snowing once I got into NC on the way to work.

Scott is working the entire weekend and I really need to get my hair done and find shoes and he needs an outfit too. Not even to mention the house needs cleaned.

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