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Yay, I did it…cleaned on Friday night again. That works out so well. I just love not being burdened with cleaning my house on Saturday morning. I am sure you are tired of hearing about it every Saturday morning. Anyway, Emma stayed the night at MIL’s last night even though MIL is going to the dr today because she is sick but far be it from me to say no to her, especially for that reason. Scott went to a junk yard with the boys today. Yes, a junk yard. They all need some sort of part for their used vehicles and are going to scrounge together I guess.

Oh, in great news, it looks like we sold that Jeep we bought and indeed doubled our money! Yahoo! We are still not sure what to do with our money except I think we definitely decided to put a picket fence up in the backyard. The neighbor complained that Mattie poops in their yard so we’ve been putting her on the chain outside. We’ve been tossing around the idea of a fence and meant to even before we moved in but it just hasn’t been an issue until now. And spending over 1K on something needs to have a good reason. But I figure it will be a good selling point when we move, so it’s more of an investment.

D & I want to go shopping this afternoon but Scott is complaining because he’ll be gone this morning and then if I’m gone this afternoon, that doesn’t give us much us time together on one of his very few Saturdays off. But really, this is the only time for D & I to go spend our gift cards until April 7 because Scott is getting his wisdom teeth out in two weeks and the next weekend he is off, he is having to work the Carolina Cup Horse Race. Scott said he’d go shopping with me today to spend it but for some reason that just doesn’t seem quite as much fun. Although we did have a lot of fun the past few times we went, so maybe.

In AI news, I’m so excited for the bottom 4 on Thursday. Someone must have read my mind. Maybe after 4 seasons we all finally figured this thing out. Oh! Ya’ll have GOT to go read the latest entry at www.greyswriters.com. She has this list of 6 things about the show and the 6th one she goes random on AI. It’s hilarious.

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I am definitely enjoying the guys this year on AI. Which is a first for me for AI. I liked Clay Aiken but I never really wanted him to win as much as I want Chris Daughtry to win. I’ve liked him since the first time I saw him on there. It was the same way with Carrie. I tried to vote for him last night but his line continued to be busy. I would be good if Taylor won instead and I really enjoyed his song last night unlike the judges. David must go tonight. Sway must go tonight. I will be surprised if its someone else that goes. As for the girls, I find myself not caring so much.

MIL took both girls yesterday afternoon. I was able to work uninterrupted, clean the living room/kitchen/play room and go to the gym for some arm workout AND a class. Yipee!

I started reading the Excellent Wife by Martha Pearce since it was in my “library”. I’m waiting on another book Created to be his Help Meet by Debi Pearl but I ordered it from Amazon from someone and picked expedited shipping and hopefully they shipped it right away. It’s tough stuff to read. Very conservative. Which is fine with me but it requires a lot from wives. I know if I did it, it would be good but it’s hard to do it.

Right now I’m in a I want to quit my job phase. I don’t want to live without the money but I find I don’t like that my kids are sometimes being “babysat” by me. And I know if I wasn’t working, I’d probably have other tasks around the house that would keep me from their attention but at least I would have the option. And I could go to Bible Studies and go to the gym and I could take Emma to Little Gym and go to D’s house with the girls and I just would be freed up to even just go to the backyard whenever we wanted! We would probably have to get rid of our van and get a used one and I’d probably have to give up the gym and I’m not sure we could even afford preschool and we surely couldn’t afford Little Gym. So I know it’s not what I think trying to live on one income and I am really lucky to be able to work from home at all. It’s just. Ugh. I don’t wanna work right now.

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I had a one on one bible study type thing with a good friend and mentor of mine on Monday. Mostly about G. I think I realized how serious this could have been and how immature, selfish, wrong, etc. I was. I spent a lot of yesterday thinking really hard about what I did, what I should be doing and what I want. Needless to say, I don’t think I’ll be talking about G much more. It is sort of sobering when you actually have to talk about what you did out loud to someone you respect very much.

Emma didn’t go to school Monday or today. But I’ve got PMS and she’s irritable and Scott went to work today and I can only hope we don’t drive each other crazy. I have little compassion when I have PMS and she needs lots of it right now so I pray I can serve up a lot to her even though I don’t feel like it. I finally took her to the dr Tuesday after she stayed all day on Monday on the couch and the dr said she was almost 100% sure she had the flu but it should only last another day or so. And Mom went to the dr last night and she has pneumonia!

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I was not impressed at all with the ladies on AI last night. I think Kellie might be the only one where I actually felt entertained and was on the edge of my seat. And that might be just because I was hoping she would do well.

Princess sang well although I would agree her song was too old for her. Ayla surprised me also and sang with a little bit of passion but it does seem that she is connecting the passion with herself and the audience. Mandisa has a great voice and passion, she just seems old for the competition. Heather was wrong for choosing Mariah. She sang the song decently but it was not good compared to the original. I think Kinnik sent herself home last night. That was bad. To me, Brenna didn’t do so bad but her attitude has got to go. I don’t like her very much. I think the rest were pretty forgettable.

I’m looking forward to the guys tonight!

Grey’s Anatomy comments–I just feel so bad for George. I mean, the poor guy. You felt bad at the beginning of the show because you kind of get that he was hurt by Meredith but you don’t really GET how bad it was until near the end with his flashback. And then, you saw all the awkwardness, the ickiness and then the slap in the face that Meredith gave him. He had no idea what happened with her father that day. All he knows is the woman he loves is NOT enjoying him when it means the most. The writers over at www.greyswriters.com seem to hint at–and I hope it’s true–that George gets something good out of this. That he gets a backbone and is better for it. But let me tell you, I’m not at all impressed with Dr. whatshername that is into him. That was weird too for some reason.
And Denny. I wish he would get better. Izzie and him are so cute together. And Alex, a teensy-weensy part of me feels bad for him because you could really tell he was getting into Izzie last night but dern. He has done Izzie wrong and now he knows just a little bit how it feels.
And I liked Addison last night for the first time. She actually showed some humanity and real emotion. Yeah, it might have been about poison oak but at least she seemed normal.
And if I wasn’t so mad at Meredith, I might be a little excited that her and Derek are trying to be friends. But we all know that’s not going to work. They’re both too vulnerable right now and it hasn’t been long enough since they were together and they were already giving each other looks. That’s going downhill fast. I bet they get themselves some poison oak on their little walk before it’s over.

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So I got my cleaning done today. With the exception of just a few things, my house is clean. That always feels good. This evening Lexi and I went to Wal-Mart with Mom, Heather and Emma. I say Emma at the end with them because Emma is staying with Mom tonight and taking her to her church in the morning. So Lexi is already asleep this evening and I could technically go to sleep. I also could organize and throw out a BUNCH of stuff in drawers, cabinets and closets. I have the energy tonight thanks to caffeine I drank today but guess what? I put in my Grey’s Anatomy DVD again. So I’m stuck.

Scott still seemed to get a little bit of a fever back today and so did Emma. Emma was doing really well today and seemed back to normal but she seemed like she was getting warm at Wal-Mart. I really don’t know what is up with those two. I’ve never seen this on and off again fever for so many days. I would take Emma to the dr but she acts completely normal except for a little bit of coughing and the fever.

I really have nothing exciting to talk about this evening. Oh, uh, I’m not supposed to say anything but Scott’s cousin is pregnant! The sort of bad part is that means ANOTHER November baby in the family. And, if it’s a girl, that’s craziness. We had Emma 11/02, two more girls one in 10/03 and another in 11/03. Then Lexi came 11/04 and now we will probably have another 11/06. And their family is not that big! Let’s just hope it’s a boy!

So since I have nothing to talk about, I may as well make this as random as possible with random lists I made up:

Things I especially love seeing clean:
Newly vacuumed carpet
No crumbs on the outer edges of the kitchen floor under the cabinets
The toilet, right behind the seat

Things I will spend money to get the higher quality:
Coffee
Paper towels
Toilet Paper
Soft drinks
Panty hose

Places I would go right now if I could:
To the movies to see Brokeback Mountain
To Longhorn to get Flo’s Filet
Shopping at Ann Taylor
Be a fly on the wall at G’s birthday party

Ok, I think all that was random enough.

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Do you know how addicted I am to Grey’s Anatomy? I bought the first season and finished the 9 episodes in 5 days in only 3 sittings. That includes bonus material too. And tonight I’m watching all the podcasts on iTunes. So much for 9:00 bedtime tonight.

Has anyone noticed how addicted to things I get??

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So I gave G the letter today. Our manager had given him a card just from her during lunch and when we were all walking out I told him I had a card in the car for him. So he came with me and I gave it to him and told him to read it later. When I got home, he didn’t say anything to me for like 2 hours. Which is a really long time for him. We usually chat on and off the entire day. And he just said thanks for coming to lunch and thanks for the card and what you said and it’s kind of long story and without all the details, he basically confirmed that I had been a good influence on him. Which really means a lot to me. He doesn’t seem to be ready to make any life changes right now although we did sort of dare him not to drank for 40 days a couple weeks ago since we didn’t think he could do it and he’s doing it starting after his birthday party this weekend. And he said he’s going to start working out again since he wasn’t going to have much to do during the 40 days. Which is exactly what I thought he should be doing. It’s just not good for his health if nothing else. I would love to see these 40 days be his excuse to say you know, it’s not so bad and if I’m really going to pick up a girl like I want, I need to be doing stuff differently from now on. Whatever it takes. Like I’ve said before, I just see so much potential for him. Anyway, I’m glad that he didn’t chew my head off for what I said and not talk to me ever again and at least he seemed appreciative of what I said even though I wouldn’t guess he might agree with all of it. My only job was to lay it out on the table and that’s all I can do. What he does with it is his call.

So tonight I’m really tired. I’m not going to make it past 9 I don’t think. Emma still has a fever and last night she tossed and turned and I didn’t get much sleep. Scott is working tonight and although I really should clean while the kids are asleep, I just don’t have the energy. I’m not even disappointed that I’m not, I just know I couldn’t do it. We picked Emma up from MIL’s Wed night and Emma said, did you clean while we were gone? Which is cute because usually when MIL gets her I do take the opportunity to clean. I guess they are more aware than we think sometimes.

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