I have to say Sunday mornings have been quite draining for me lately. I work hard to make Sunday School good. I feel especially pressured since there is no youth pastor. I want something consistent, something exciting, something deep, something they like coming to.
But there is one girl in my class who just doesn’t get it. She professes to be a Christian and yet seems intent on bucking the system. She’s so needy emotionally it’s not funny so she does everything imaginable to put all the attention on herself. She comes in late, leaves early, makes mean comments to the other kids, gets angry easily, throws papers down, pouts. And really, most of that happened just this morning. I don’t even get mad at her, I just get so let down. I feel like my words are bouncing off a brick wall never to be seen again. Some of the kids will comment if a week is good like today but then there’s that one. The one who wasn’t listening and could have cared less. She’s so wrapped up in her world that she doesn’t care to respect me or the class or even her peers.
At the end of class, I just have this disappointed look on my face and slowly gather all my belongings and really just want to lay down and pout instead of heading up to choir to sing. It’s just so emotionally draining. To give myself…all the way to my core to try to help someone else just for them to basically laugh at it. It hurts some I guess. But really it just makes me sad. Some for me but mostly for her. All I can think about ironically is the verse from Sunday School today…
Proverbs 1:7 The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge: but fools despise wisdom and instruction.
But as for me,
2 Timothy 4:5 But you, keep your head…endure hardship, do the work…discharge all the duties of your ministry.