Lately I’ve been in a funk of sorts. I think I need something to do. I’ve been spending alot of time online lately doing a whole lot of nothing. Adding a ton of blogs to read. Maybe hoping to find some new friends, not sure. At times, as busy as I stay, I feel lonely. I need a friend. Someone I can just sit and talk to about absolutely nothing. And I guess in a lot of ways that’s what I do here. And yet, this blog doesn’t give me a whole lot back. Actually, nothing I do online does. I’m not really part of an online community, usually just on the outside reading what everyone else is doing. And it’s no fault of my few readers, but I usually don’t get a lot of feedback. And that’s fine because I keep this blog for my own personal journaling. Very, very few people in my “real life” read this blog. And I’ve been struggling with that too. Debating giving it out to some of my closest friends hoping maybe to make our connection stronger by keeping up with each other more often. But then I’m pretty sure it will get out to the family. Not sure how I feel about that. Will this really be a place for me to vent at times if I know everyone in my life is reading it? But lately, I’ve felt the need to connect with people more and have seriously considered it. I don’t know what’s going on with me. But I do have that unsettled, not quite “full” feeling. I know my bible study has been lacking lately, especially since I’ve put our bible study on hold since helping out with the band. I know it’s no excuse, but it is a reason. Anyway, I don’t know what’s going on with me, but just wanted to get that out there.
Archives for 2007
lyrics
Our youth group is part of this thing where we get everyone’s new CDs to use as ministry tools. I brought a couple home to check out. One was Hip Hope 2007 with KJ-52’s song “Do Yo Thang”. KJ-52 is sort of like a Christian Eminem. I just found some of these lyrics funny so I’ll share:
You know you don’t fit in
When your own myspace only got 3 friends
It’s Tom your mom and a dude named Ben
And I don’t even know how I added him
And then:
I go to McDonalds aint got no cash
I just order hot sauce then I walk out fast
And lastly:
I don’t think the kid is well
He sends viruses to his own email
He got 5 text messages all from myself
Saying your wack dude LOL
I really used to keep it real
In my little mini van with the 10 inch wheels
Driving up to side just get my meal
Can I get fries, “sir this is Taco Bell”
They have no great meaning and aren’t hilarious, but it was funny at the moment.
Todd Agnew has some really great songs on his new album. I especially like these lyrics from his song “Funny”:
It’s funny how the bright ol’ sun can hear Your voice along its way
Stop in the middle of the sky for an entire day
Because You said so
It’s funny how a donkey can hear Your voice
And talk instead of bray to set Your child on His way
Because You said soAnd You speak to me all the time
Lighting my path with Your words of life
But I can’t obey You no matter how hard I tryWell, I can but I don’t, and I want to but I won’t
And I don’t do what I want to
I do what I don’t mean to
And I’m confused
It’s funny how a fish can obey You but I can’t
And then his song “If You Wanted Me” is filled with the questions I think a lot of people have asked God at one point:
I’ll admit I’m glad we’re not disciples
Out on a lake paralyzed with fright
‘Cause I’m afraid I might have laughed at Peter
Until he stepped into that stormy nightIf you wanted me to walk on water
Why’d You make the solid ground seem so right?I’ll admit I’m glad I’m not King David
Ruling over everything I see
‘Cause I think I’ve fallen for more than Bathsheba
Your creation’s a temptation for meIf you wanted me to love you only
Why’d you make the moonlight sparkle in her eyes?I’ll admit I’m glad I’m not John the Baptist
In a jail cell waiting for my day to die
‘Cause at least down here I know what we’re chasing
And it’s hard to trust Your dreams are so much better than mineIf you wanted me to die to myself
Why’d you make me fall so deeply in love with life?If You wanted me to surrender
Why’d You make these hands able to hold on so tight?And if You wanted me to be like You
Why’d You make me like me?
Pageant – I think we’re gonna make it
OK, so this morning I was getting nervous about the pageant tomorrow. Lexi still wasn’t sold on either of the dresses we had picked out. I had no frilly socks that fit them. No new Sunday School shoes. No hair bows. I talked to Mom on the phone last night and she planned on taking them shopping on their day together today.
But when she came over this morning, I found one more dress we already had that could work for Lexi. It’s white with burgundy flower on the top. She was ALL. OVER. wearing that dress. And then we tried on her white glitter slip on shoes and they looked perfect with no socks required. Then Emma tried on her dress and since it’s pink with a brown sash, so do you wear white shoes or black? Then I remembered she also has multi-colored glitter shoes that are trimmed in brown with a bow on them. They were perfect and also no socks required. Whew. Only thing lacking was hair bows and Mom is on the mission as we speak.
Lexi did. not. want to take off her dress and shoes but the dress is dry-clean only so I had to force it off her. She wasn’t happy. But I’m hoping that means she’ll now be excited to wear her outfit tomorrow. Whew.
Emma of course is excited and twirls and smiles. I hope she doesn’t freak being on stage by herself. We’re gonna have “practice” again tonight so hopefully that will help.
Post Surgery update
Scott’s doing really, really well. He was up through most of yesterday and today. He can even move his arm and use it while still in the sling. He says the pain is not near as bad as when he broke it. The medicine still makes him whoozy when he hasn’t had something to eat. He seems to think he’ll be back to work pretty quickly.
I’m not smarter than a preschooler
Lexi found Emma’s old Tupperware shape sorter and wanted to do it. Heather and I were sitting with her in her room and as she picked up each shape, we asked her things like, “Where does the circle go?” “Where does the triangle go?”
So I picked up that six-sided-shape and unfortunately started talking out loud…”What’s this called? Six sides…sex….sex…sexa…sexagon? Uh, I mean, hexagon.” Heather was of course laughing at me and then I said, “Sexagon, that’s not a shape, that’s what happens when you get married.”
I’m so punny.
Post Surgery Day
Scott ended up sleeping through the afternoon after my last post. His mom dropped by to pick up the girls so I woke him to see his mom. Apparently she was pretty upset (read sad, not mad) that she wasn’t at the surgery yesterday morning so I thought it best she see him. After she left, we both crawled into bed and took a 2 hour nap. That was wonderful.
I ordered pizza and we watched Tombstone in bed. It was sort of like a mini vacation actually. Scott’s pills had finally kicked in and we just relaxed.
The bad part is he continued to be nauseous through the evening, not able to keep down the pizza or some soup we tried. Everyone insists it’s the anesthesia so hopefully today will be better.
He slept well through the night except got up to take pills and was up with me this morning and even helped get Emma dress since I got a work call first thing.
He’s back in bed this morning, still feeling dizzy/nauseous when he walks around too much.
Overall, this has gone WAY better than I had thought. I told Scott last night I could tell people had prayed hard for us. Our patience and overall “niceness” factor with each other was almost outstanding. His pain was at a minimum from what I could tell and it just has been very calm and pleasant around here. So mark this as an answer to prayer.
The Patient
Here’s our lovely patient. He can’t seem to sleep today, only getting in about an hour of decent sleep. So now he’s watching some of his favorite movies in our room and just relaxing. He’s gotten up to walk a few times but he’s wobbly and dizzy. He keeps saying he’s going to go to church tonight but that’s not happening if it’s up to me.
He has been a great patient this time, not saying anything embarrassing to the nurses, not demanding in the least and quite patient and appreciative of me. So far so good.
Brand Loyalty
As part of Works for Me Wednesday, I’ll be listing all my favorite brands, cause I’m a marketer’s favorite client, I like a lot of brand name things…her main list already took several of mine, but I’m going to list them anyway because I’m particular about these…
Charmin MEGA roll – I used to be a Cottonelle fan just because that’s what Mom always had but what’s with all the fuzzy stuff? Heather finally convinced me to try it and I haven’t turned back.
Bounty towels – With so many spills around here, I HAVE to have thick towels that can be used like a rag, not a tissue. And please no prints.
Bed Head hair products – Doesn’t matter which one, I always like Bed Head brand better.
Pop-Tarts – The fake ones I do not like.
Krispy Kreme doughnuts – Are there any other kind?
Heinz ketchup – it’s the only one sweet enough for my taste.
Pampered Chef – only use their baking stones, the others don’t seem to “do right”
Maybelline Great Lash Waterproof Mascara
I have several clothing and shoes brands I like but obviously don’t adhere exclusively to including Ann Taylor Loft, Nine West, Express, Victoria’s Secret and Old Navy.
That should do it.