So it’s been, what, a month since I started Weight Watchers? Something like that. I splurged this past weekend at one point was up 1.5 lb from goal. With the beach trip this weekend, I’ve been really strict this week and am now under goal by a pound. Which really is like a pound above my “ultimate” goal. It’s really nice to be able to maintain right around goal without much effort or suffering at all.
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Pageant update
Completely unclimatic but the pageant director emailed me to say that Lexi is the ONLY competitor in her age group so I assume that means she wins by default and will be going to state. I don’t think I’m going to spend the money on getting her hair done this time.
In other really bad news, Emma is actually up a class than we thought and NO ONE can walk with her on stage. She’s kind freaking out about it and so am I. Emma is extremely shy and I was thinking this would be ok because I would be with her. If she freaks out, then I can just pick her up and walk her the rest of the way. I’m considering not sending the money in and cancelling her spot so no one has to push her on stage or pick her up from a shaking, crying heap on stage. You never know though, Emma can be quite the entertainer at times (see previous post on HSM2 remix) and might do well. I hate decision making!
Surgery confirmed
Scott’s surgery is confirmed for Wednesday. Not sure what time yet though. The bone has not healed together and instead of bolting it together they are just going to remove the small part of bone at the end. He said the healing time is about 4 weeks. It’s an outpatient surgery so no hospital stays. In fact, it’s not even at the hospital, it’s at a orthopaedic surgery center and from the sounds of it I just drop him off and pick him up. Depending on the length of it, I may hang around during the surgery. We’ll know more on Tuesday after he meets with anesthesiologist (sp??).
That wasn’t half bad
OK, so youth band tonight wasn’t half bad. I KNOW I was off-pitch but I knew where we were in the songs and I knew where to come 99% of the time. That is HUGE. Wanna know what helped? One of the guitarist that was not there at practice yesterday got on the stage with a mic and sang with me. He’s not a great singer either but because he’s playing, he knows EXACTLY when to come in. Now with him giving me more confidence in the timing, I feel more open to singing louder. And not saying it was great, but it was a vast improvement. AND turns out he has a keyboard so he’s going to bring it next week and I think one of our other leaders that plays keyboard on Sunday morning is going to give it a whirl (don’t worry, Jaynee, I’ve still got you on MY LIST and will let you know how it goes). As much as I’ve whined and complained this week, tonight I’m pumped because I see hope!
Scott’s shoulder
After going back and forth about when to get Scott’s collarbone operated on, it’s been scheduled for next Wednesday assuming his xray tomorrow shows it’s still not together. Let me just tell you, can’t wait for THAT.
Ugh, the singing
OK, so only the lead and bass guitarist and myself showed up for practice. It was enough that we could actually run through the songs and me to learn the intros and transitions and such. But. I sounded even worse with absolutely no one else to sing with and no keyboard for me to hear the melody.
It sucked.
They said I needed to sing louder and that it sounded “boring”. I kept trying to explain part of the problem was the song was quite redundant and I was trying to sing notes that were way too low for me and I knew we needed to change keys but I don’t know enough about my singing to know and they aren’t experienced enough yet to know either.
I was straight up with them saying I know right now I can’t lead this music but I’m willing to sing crappy just so someone is at least leading the group. They were insistent they wanted me to sing with them. As for other singers, they seemed game for getting a “praise team” of several youth to also sing. But trying to get random people to commit is hard. And if this is going to work, they HAVE to be at practice.
Last evening I went over to St’s new church and listened to them practice hoping to glean some insight on how to run practice with a band. They actually are doing some songs we are. But I’m not sure if the practice served anything except to show awesomely excellent they are and how horrible I’m doing.
I talked to St after he got out for about an hour. We realized I have a few problems. For one thing, I’m trying to lead songs with a male lead line. He has a high male voice so when I go to sing the songs the band is used to, I’m either way too high, or way too low. And obviously during practice yestrday, I was singing way too low. Another problem is I’m used to singing in the choir and I can either hear the melody with the track, piano or other sopranos singing. With the band (no keyboardist right now), I have nothing. No point of reference.
I have to know how to sing it.
Period.
And I don’t.
I’m no soloist, have never been.
And here I’m trying to lead a band. But honestly, part of me feels like I’m supposed to be doing this. St has agreed to meet with me Friday and help me figure out what keys I should be singing in and we’re going to have a keyboard there. And he’s going to show me all the resources online for the lead sheets, transposing, etc.
He also ensured me I CAN sing. I’ve stood directly in front of him for two years as he’s lead our choir and he knows I can sing. And St is picky. I know he’d tell me if I couldn’t. So I know I can do this.
My last problem is I’m just scared out of my mind and I have to let loose and just let it go. Get over myself and do it.
So for now I’m hanging in there. I want to learn how to sing and how to do it my way, not St’s way. I want to be the singer the band needs because those kids are talented and I don’t want to see it go to waste.
Crap.
I can’t sing.
I thought I could sing a little bit, but no.
I can’t sing.
Before I went to a two hour practice tonight with the band, I recorded myself and listened to it to make sure I wasn’t going to make a complete fool out of myself tonight or at youth tomorrow.
And guess what??
I AM GOING TO MAKE A COMPLETE FOOL OF MYSELF.
It’s bad. Really bad. Like American Idol reject, show it in the first few episodes of the season bad.
What am I going to do?? I have practice in less than two hours now and am expected to sing. I’m so depressed. Why have people let me sing in the choir for the past 10 years?!? I even asked Scott and he said with a smirk and a little laugh, it’s ok. AHH!! Why are you letting your wife get in front of 50 people and siiinnngg?!
Let me tell you, this is going to give a whole new meaning to the phrase “Jesus Freak”. Lord, help us all. Seriously.
Scott Baio
Apparently I’m not the only one liking this show as it’s been renewed and filming his journey as an expectant father.