Archives for October 2008

******************TWILIGHT AND NEW MOON  SPOILERS******************

BEWARE OF FANTASTICAL RANTS ABOUT A BOOK

Ok, so last night I finally finished the partial Midnight Sun script.  I loved that.  I loved knowing what Edward was feeling and loved how so many things had happened that Bella had no idea of.  Which makes me dislike the first person in the rest of the books because hello?  Are we going to get a whole other set of books from Edward’s perspective?

Anyway, I moved on to New Moon last night.  I got about 120 pages into it up to where Mike lets her leave work early and she drives around town.  I read more this morning..to the part where Bella gets the bikes and takes them to Jac0b.

And ya’ll, I’m having trouble.  Edward’s gone and Bella is broken and that means I’m broken.  How could he leave like that?  Yes, he’s putting her needs before his but come on!  And what was with the “hallucinations” in Port Angeles?  Is he really being her vampire angel?  I feel a weird sense of loss along with Bella.  Stephenie would be happy I guess.

Because of a few small spoilers I’ve seen, I know this book is about Jac0b.  And as far as I’ve read, you can see it coming from a mile away..they’re going to get into a relationship.  Jac0b has been ready since we first saw him in Twilight.  And I just don’t know if I can go there.  Do I want to read a book where Bella is with another guy?  I know at some point Edward comes back.  And maybe Stephenie makes it easy and he saves her from some bike accident and they’re suddenly back together or maybe something happens to Jac0b and her and he slowly comes back or maybe the werewolves and the vampires fight it out in some final scene and Edward wins the fight and the girl. I don’t know.  I just don’t know if I want to go there.  I will because I know Edward and Bella find each other in the end.  But right now, my heart hurts and it’s hard to turn the pages.

Today I’m not feeling quite so overwhelmed.  I went into the office this morning last minute for a one on one meeting with my manager.  I thought maybe it was bad news but she just wanted to catch up and it was a nice lunch out.

I had to work late again this evening and actually still keeping an eye on one job.  Heather took the girls out for dinner and some shopping so I actually had time to spend on some of my “need to do list”.  Felt really good making some headway on that.

Scott and I are currently watching House and then Privileged is up next.  THEN I plan on reading more of Midnight Sun partial script.  I should be getting Eclipse tomorrow so I want to be ready 🙂

And so this isn’t a completely boring post…

Listening to Enya while coding for fun made me happy today.
Lexi crying for me when I left for work made me sad today.
Scott leaving towels in the girls dirty clothes AGAIN made me mad today.
My meeting with my boss made me nervous today.
Reading Midnight Sun made me feel excited today.

You may have noticed along with my mom that posts have been slimmer since I’ve been back from New York. I’m telling you, my world has been spinning since then! I have a list on a white board (ok, it’s green) that I should be doing but I can’t seem to scratch even one off the list. So what could I possibly be doing with my time?

1. Family/House/Work. These are obvious and a must. But I’ve been trying to do more cooking at home (that’s hit or miss. i haven’t eaten out since Friday though), trying to keep up with laundry (and doing pretty well, thanks. i’ve even taken up ironing lol), keep up with Emma’s school work and reading. Work has been INSANE the past two weeks with some testing going on. Wednesday night I worked until 7:30 and didn’t even make it to church. Every day it seems I’m working late. I finally gave up at 5 or 5:30 today and normally I quit around 4. That hour before dinner is when I catch up with the house from the day. I’m just glad Scott is off and on days right now so he’s up and around to help me out around that time. He really is so great to help me out around the house so much. We’d be lost without him!
2. Bible Study. 1.5 hr on Saturday and then daily keeping up with my assignments and video. This really shouldn’t be a chore but it has to fit in.
3. Twitter.com. I won’t lie. I spend some time keeping up with everyone.
4. One Tree Hill Blog. Yes, things have gotten easier but it still takes up time looking for information and posting. Mainly keeping an eye on the comments seem to be the thing that holds me back. It’s been getting nasty there lately. I joked that I had to put on my Mommy voice a time or two to get people to calm down.
5. PrivilegedNews.com. This site does not take me more than a few minutes a day but sometimes all I have is a few minutes and it gets my time to make a post.
6. Reading everyone else’s blogs.
7. Facebook. Again, only a few minutes here and there.
8. Here. But as noted, it’s been a little slack lately.
9. Emails. My goodness the emails seem to have grown. I adore emails and all the great comments I’ve been getting since getting back. I would take this over almost anything else but it does take time to read and reply. Don’t anyone dare quit commenting or emailing trying to help me.
10. TV. I’ve REALLY cut back on what I watch. Only one or MAYBE two shows a night. MUCH less than I had planned at the beginning of the season. But an hour or two a night is significant when I’m trying to get so much done. Thankfully you can do things WHILE watching TV.
11. Reading and obsessing over Twilight but that just started Saturday. It’s a good thing there are fifty-bagillion web sites already because I’d be all over that.
12. Couponing. This past week was busy with the KMart deals and all that jazz. And I haven’t blogged about it much, but I’m still going to CVS weekly.

Now the other stuff that I NEED to fit in are:

• My church’s web site NEEDS a new site soon because their current host is expiring soon and they’re not renewing. I’ve gone so far as downloading a template to use.
• Our church’s youth web site needs rehauled. I’ve done a few things on this but haven’t gotten far.
• My mom’s web site is in need of a few changes.
• Our friends are starting a church and just want a domain purchased right now but are “in the queue” to have a web site done.

Things I would WISH I could do:

• Buy that other web site that was offered to me.
• Volunteer at Emma’s school.
• Increase my volunteer time at the church. There are many things I’d like to get into.
• Read more.
• Shop more.
• Watch TV more.
• Go out with friends more.
• Travel more. *cough* Wilmington *cough*
• Catch up on movies

Obviously I can’t do all the things even on my “need to do” list. It’s impossible. And I know my mom wants to give me a speech about quitting stuff and making time and all that jazz. But I just want to be supermom and supergeek and superfriend and super-duper everything else and get everything even on my wish list done but it’s just not possible. I feel like I need 3 more of me to get it all done. And really? When I start to think about it, I just get overwhelmed and go see what everyone is doing on Twitter. Not helpful.

Seriously though, I’ve wanted to quit work so badly lately and just do all this stuff I love. Sometimes I think life is short! Bag it and do what you love! Then I think well..it does have 401K and benefits and this little thing called a paycheck and while we COULD live off Scott’s income and the supplemental I’m (temporarily) getting off of my sites, there’s a lot of that wish list stuff that might not happen while trying to adjust.

I don’t know. Even while writing this post I’ve been thinking I could have been working on something else. There’s always something else. I don’t know what the answer is or if I need an answer. Right now, I’m just in that drowning phase and just coming up to breathe for a moment.

I’ve had a person or two notice that I haven’t posted here as much as normal.  Well, ok.  I’ll admit.  Just my mom misses my daily posts.  So this one’s for her.

Friday night Heather and I went back to KMart. We didn’t get home until 12:30 after visiting two KMarts, one an hour away.  Not sure if it was worth the time and gas except we had fun.

Emma stayed with MIL Friday night but Lexi wanted to go home.  So she was off with me for bible study and helping set up stuff at church for the spaghetti dinner on Sunday.  I don’t think she was feeling well because she stuck by my side.  In fact, she sat in my lap the entire 1.5 hr we were at bible study.  Very unlike her.

I brought Emma home from the church and the girls and I just hung out at home.  They played and I cleaned the house.  Saturday night I cooked dinner which I don’t do a lot on the weekends.  It was really nice to actually be at home.  After getting the kids to bed, I spent the entire night reading Twilight.  I stayed up until 1 when my eyes would not stay open to read anymore.

By the time Lexi went to sleep Saturday she had a fever and was complaining her neck (throat) hurt.  I knew at that point we weren’t going to church.  I woke up Sunday morning to her throwing up in my bed.  That was after I had given her some apple juice.  We were definitely not going to church at that point.  But she was fine all morning, even eating a bowl of cereal.  Her fever had broken through the night and by 12, we were all ready to get out. Well, except me.  I really wanted to stay in and read, read, read!

We went to the choir dinner at church and then came back home.  I let the kids play while I got my CVS stuff ready.  I bravely took them to CVS and they were excited to get candy and a halloween bucket.  Scott got home a little late so I didn’t go to choir.  At that point I think we all just wanted to stay home together instead of going to church.  I had barely seen Scott all weekend because of my Kmart trip and reading marathon.  So we all headed out grocery shopping together and stayed in for the evening.

Today was a normal Monday…Lexi and Emma to school, Scott off working at the church and me at home working and on conference calls most of the day!

This evening we ate at home and then the girls and I played some Wii while Scott was at the church again for a meeting.  My evening was spent watching One Tree Hill.  Scott was home by the end and we started watching Baby Mama but the DVD started skipping.  We’ve had a lot of problems with that lately and the first 10 minutes didn’t really interest either of us so we gave up.

And now, Mom, I hoped you’ve enjoyed because I really feel like this is a boring post!  I have a few more brewing in my head so maybe I’ll get another one out tonight.

I want a thought-provoking post to come out of me right now but it’s not happening.

• Career Day went well.  The last of 3 teachers that rotated to us said we were the most interesting so I guess that’s good.  My flower girl who also was a girl I used babysit in my neighborhood was in the first class.  It made me feel old.
• I got home at 10:30 from the school and didn’t quit working until 7:30 tonight.  I’m only supposed to work 6 hours a day.
• Even after all that I’m going into the office tomorrow and will be in meetings all day.  Right at this moment, I’m not excited about it.
• I started chatting with a girl I went to high school with who works in marketing at a local modeling agency today on Facebook.  She’s willing to forward my comp card to their agency folks.  I’m going to dig up my comp card and seriously consider doing local stuff again.  #HBC was just too much fun.  Melissa is supposed to help update the card and hopefully have something soon to hand out.
• An established TV blog that is for sale has been offered to me.  I seriously want to take but I seriously don’t want to spend the money or have the time to do it.
• I seriously want to quit work to blog and model.  Doesn’t it sound lovely?
• If you haven’t seen Iron Man, please do so immediately.
• Nights in Rodanthe was ok.  Wait for DVD.
• No idea why those last two made it to the list.
• My eyes hurt and I want to go to bed.