I hadn’t planned to do this. Not because it’s not a valid thing to do or I didn’t want to. I think I just didn’t want to not do it justice. I’m not a resolutions type girl. And really, I’m quite indecisive so picking just one word to infuse into my entire year was daunting to say the least. But over the weekend I just can not get my word out of my head. I feel like it’s already seeping its way into 2011 without me ever committing to it.
I originally thought I wanted to do “giving”. One thing I do want to continue to do from 2010 is to loosen my grip on my possessions and money and give with an open hand. My first verse of Beth Moore’s Scripture Memory team is Deuteronomy 15:10.
“You shall give to him generously and without begrudging it; because of this the Lord will bless your work and all you undertake.”
You may think I want to give for the second half of that verse…for the blessings. But my true goal is to learn to give without begrudging it. I never begrudge it when I think the person “deserves” it but I want to learn GRACEFUL GIVING. Giving when they person DOESN’T deserve it. I admit, it’s a difficult pill to swallow but I think it’s a Biblical one. God gives us so much grace and I think we would all do well to extend it more.
We’re still thinking a lot about adoption. I know I haven’t blogged much about it. In fact, I’m not sure I’ve said a word about it since a year ago. But we talk a lot about it, are discussing it with people, making plans. We’re still not 100% sure what direction He’s leading us in this area but I wanted a word that would encompass that journey.
There were some other things I wanted to include that honestly, I can barely remember but it all came down to one word. One word that would suffice for every situation I was thinking of and that is
It feels like a Sunday School answer to the question. But I’m learning sometimes Sunday School answers are just the right ones. If I can learn to love my fellow brothers and sisters like Christ loves them, the rest will fall into place. I will have more compassion, more mercy, more grace, open hands, open arms, an open heart. And one wonderful year. May it be so.