In which we write for 5 minutes on identity – no editing, no over thinking, no backtracking:
I am His, He is mine. I don’t know how to do life without Him. But sometimes I don’t know how to do life with Him either. It’s because of this vast difference between Him and I that I struggle. But I know that life is in Him. I must remain in Him, on the vine. Especially when I have no idea what I’m doing, which I’m learning is most of the time. But I can’t just set it aside, ignore it, make a snap decision. It is more than a belief, a thought, an interpretation. He is who I am. I must filter all things through His truth. But oftentimes because I’m not Him yet and He doesn’t always give me eyes to see I don’t know who I am and I don’t know who to be. But it doesn’t mean I give up, quit the fight, give in. I search. My heart searches like a mother finding a lost child or the shepherd with his wayward sheep. I’m on that journey, that tiny road, trying to run when it’s all dark and there’s mud holding my feet back and weeds tripping me and branches slamming against me. I’m torn, scraped and dirty. But I must because I know the very best awaits. That unconditional, peaceful, fulfilling part when you know you found a little piece of Him. You’ve added that little part of Him into you to become Him.
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Beth Zimmerman recently posted…Identity
Thank you, Beth!
sorry i didn’t get my comment up the other day amy. i started a couple of times and got interrupted! i enjoyed your post:) keep plugging on. great writing.
martha brady recently posted…FIVE MINUTE FRIDAY: WHO AM I?…
It is of course no problem. Thanks for stopping by!
I’m so glad I’m not the only one that doesn’t always have it together when it comes to this walk. There are some days that I feel like I’m holding His hand, making good decisions, pleasing Him, serving others to the best of my ability. And then there are other days when I struggle constantly hour by hour. I’ll plead for forgiveness than go right back and make the same mistake again. It’s so frustrating. But I’m so thankful God knows I’m human. And I’m so eternally grateful He loves me and always extends me grace. Love this –> “But I must because I know the very best awaits. That unconditional, peaceful, fulfilling part when you know you found a little piece of Him. You’ve added that little part of Him into you to become Him.” Amen Amen!!
Ally Garner recently posted…And The Winner Is…
Definitely do not have it together. And really, I don’t think we *need* to have it together. Yes, he calls us to holiness but more than anything he calls us to Him. You know? It’s in the striving and wanting Him that I think he concerns himself over.