So I ended up NOT going to see Footloose last night. I was on the way to Pizza Hut to get dinner and I realize I keep complaining about being gone from home and here I was going to a high school play with a 18 year old for no good reason. It was something I could give up. And in the end, it was a good decision. I got the house cleaned up, got to spend time with the family. I opened the paper today to a picture of it and had a twinge of regret that I didn’t see it but I’m sure I would much more regret walking around a dirty house today and the guilt that I was gone ANOTHER evening. I completely understand that I need time away from the kids. But they were gone Friday night and part of Saturday, I literally been gone all day Sunday, all day Monday until 7pm and then today they were at school, and will be at MILs until almost 9pm tonight and tomorrow night I have to work overtime as well. So I don’t know, it just seemed like too much. Some days I just need time at home going nowhere. And Scott was off so we were all together. With his crazy schedule, we don’t get that on a regular basis. I don’t know I keep trying to work out why I didn’t go to a high school play, so moving on….
friends and/or family
Scott’s shoulder
So Scott went to the dr on Thursday. His collarbone is still broken. He cut down one of our trees in our front yard the Saturday before last and it made it pretty sore. The dr said if vigorous activity made it sore, then it would probably hurt for the rest of his life unless he got surgery. So Scott said either do it right away or wait until the fall. He is going to Turkey for his mission trip the day after Easter so they need to do it like yesterday. He was supposed to hear something back about whether workman’s comp would wait until the fall but I don’t think they’ve called us back yet. So it looks like Scott will be off work for another 2-3 months this year.
Here it goes
So here it goes again, getting out of the habit of posting. So let’s see..since I last wrote. I spoke to the friend and we’re still friends and he wasn’t totally accepting of my ideas but didn’t reject it either. So besides that, let’s see. I went to the gym Wednesday. Hurt until Saturday.
Thursday the girls went to the 2 and 4 year old checkup. Emma was 90% in height 42″, 75% in weight 37 lbs. Lexi was 85% in height 37″?, 70% in weight 30lbs. Both were healthy. He was impressed with the progress Lexi had made in her speech. I requested a hearing test for Emma and she passed. Scott said it was cute because she didn’t want to raise her hand anymore when she heard the beeping so she just told her to tell her when she heard something. Scott said the next time Emma said, “I hear something” in that little shy voice of hers. She’s so cute. So both had shots. Emma had to get 3 in her arm. Poor thing. She was a trooper and just sobbed into my shoulder. Lexi howled at the one she got in her leg. Emma had a bright red face and warm temperature by the end of the day but besides that handled them fine.
Friday night the girls went with his sister to his mom’s house and I cleaned after Scott went to work. I took an hour break to go out with the youth to do their “taking it to the streets” deal. It ended up being really quiet I think because the high school had a play going on.
I stayed up to watch One Night with the King. It was a decent movie. Good to see the story of Queen Esther on the screen. The Bible always comes to life and I can always understand it more when it is acted out like that. And at one point I actually cried thinking of the courage Esther had to approach the King when she knew it may cause her death and she did it for purely unselfish reasons. And I liked the chemistry between Xerxes and Esther. It was interesting how they brought out it more like a love story than I thought I had read. Anyway, it was worth seeing.
So Saturday we didn’t wake up until 11. That was nice. And then ILs came by and we all went to lunch. Not really what I had planned, but it was ok. Scott left for work and both girls took a nap when we got back. Heather and I watched The Departed. Horrible language but great movie. Really good. I see why it was Oscar-worthy. Saturday night we went to Mom’s and had dinner. And then Sunday we went to church and then spent the rest of the day meeting with the youth council. The girls stayed between our parents houses while we were gone. Which I hated since today I am at work all day. I feel like I haven’t seen them much. But they are at school right now anyway.
So I will be meeting a coworker today that I’ve worked with for several months but have never met. He is Russian and says the craziest things. He is hilarious. I think people are prepared to see money at our meeting just to see what he may do or say. And we’re all going out for dinner after work so I will be home late tonight. I feel like I need to take the day off and just do stuff with the girls. I mean, I’m home but never really doing much with them. Sometimes I take moments to read to them or paint with Emma or play play-doh or swing them. But all in all, my attention is on my work. And then in the evenings, family plans or church plans seem to take precedence. I guess it all works out but I just have to get out my frustration.
catch up
So the girls went back to school tomorrow for the first time since last Wednesday. And then Lexi got a fever last night. Great, round 2 is coming I suppose.
We had so many technical problems at youth group Wednesday night. The screen wouldn’t work so no words to the songs or the PowerPoint. The guys restarted the computer in the middle of the message so I couldn’t use my live capture of the sermon. But let me tell you, God moved in that service. Two people got saved and two rededicated. But there is so much drama (see previous post) it’s hard to see the good in the bad.
So Mom and Heather are in New York this weekend. So the girls won’t be going off with my mom today. Which is ok with me. While I was at the church last night recapturing the sermon on the computer, I listened to a sermon from my old pastor and as usual, God used it to speak to me. I’ve been praying about a certain thing and I’m not certain, but I think the sermon was part of the answer. I’m still not totally sure so I’m gonna keep on praying about it before anything happens. I know it’s vague but just call this an unspoken request.
Scott’s shoulder
Well, guess what? Scott went to his checkup today and his shoulder is still completely broken. Apparently in an unlucky group of 5% that never heal. He goes back in 6 weeks to see if he needs surgery.
Breakdown
Last night I was starting to have a break down. Scott yelled at me to let go of the remote Lexi had in her hand because she was crying for us to put Dora on and he was going to “handle the situation”. I immediately started crying. I just feel so fragile and out of sorts. Something is just not right. I found a podcast of my old church (Central Church of God with Loran Livingston in Charlotte, NC–PLEASE check it out, it’s awesome) and every time I listen to him I’m in like tears by the end. The two I listened to spoke about finding a local church to belong to and then finding your specific duty within the church so the body can function the way it’s supposed to. We are very involved in church but I’ve never felt completely at home there. I started going there when we got engaged because I knew he would not go to my church because it was so large and far away. We have been heavily involved since the beginning but I’ve always felt like I was missing something not going to Central. But that sermon helped and it was odd that it came from him. He basically said you may hate the pastor or the music or whatever but it may actually NEED you to reach people. So I’m not taking for granted that it’s definitely where we’re supposed to be but I do take comfort in the fact that you don’t have to love every single aspect of the church for it to be where you are SUPPOSED to be. The other one talked from Titus about how people are supposed to act–young/old male/female. Boy that was a little convicting. How I’m supposed to act as a godly woman. Talk about stepping on toes. But now I just feel like I’m hanging out there…am I supposed to quit work, am I supposed to be doing something different within the church, am I the worst mother ever because I have to work while I’m at home with my kids. Just everything. I really feel like I just need to spend time seeking what I’m supposed to be doing. Even if it’s doing what I am now, I just need that confirmation.
Not good
My BIL lost another job today. Things are not looking good for SIL and BIL. Please pray for them and all of us really. This situation could get pretty messy.
Merry Christmas!
Merry Christmas, everyone!
So Scott works today. He had to work today but he’s been home all day since 8am. Right now he’s out working a wreck though. Mom and Dad came over this morning and watched the girls open some of their presents. Scott’s parents came over at lunch to see what they got. His sister and family are coming over now because we forgot to give BIL his present. After Lexi wakes up we should be going to Mom’s house to open up what they got us.
So this weekend has gone by really quick. Friday night we went to eat with Heather at Moe’s. Then the girls headed off to MIL’s to spend the night and Scott and I finished up the last bit of shopping we had to do at Wal-Mart. That is definitely the latest I’ve ever waited to do my shopping. So Saturday I cleaned all morning. Saturday night we ended up painting Emma’s room blue. She was so excited. It’s the exact light blue in Cinderella’s dress. She loves it. I’m not sure I can get used to it. It’s so bright. I usually like a lot of color, but a darker, warmer color. This is a very cool color. Very bright. I think it might hurt my eyes. But it’s a very pretty blue color. And Emma loves it. I’m just glad it’s not in my room. So last night we spent Christmas Even at his parents exchanging presents. I got money from his parents and lingerie from his sister. Which I was really surprised but it fit perfect and it was really cute (it was a long nightgown and matching robe). Emma and Lexi got a ton of presents. The biggest being Diego’s rescue center. Their “big” gifts from us is the Dora 4-wheeler and Barbie laptop. They also got a lot more Diego and Dora and Barbie stuff and a ton of clothes we bought in Maryland last weekend.