Vintage Amy

This might make you want to throw up….my apologies in advance.

We’re on our way to camp and I’m not looking forward to it at all.  Me and Heather were not able to sign up in a cabin so we got stuck with people we don’t even know.  Heather is okay about it, but it sort of upsets me!  I want to be with my friends, especially on my 16th birthday.  I want to try to change it, but I have a feeling it’s not going to work.  Maybe S can do something for me.  Plus, I miss Scott.  I haven’t seen him since Friday night.  I hope he’s thinking about me because he’s all I can think about.

Later…

Well, things have gone better.  I’ve found friends here in my cabin and even though things didn’t work out as I had wanted, I know I will have a good time.  I’m starting not to care what other people think.  E, me, Heather and another girl, C, are the only people on this side of the cabin.  I still miss Scott so terriblly.  I just want to feel his arms around my small waist (as he calls it) and kiss his soft lips.  And to know I will not be doing this until Friday breaks my heart into many unbearable pieces.  Okay, let’s not get too mushy. [too late]  But I don’t care how I talk [really?  you should] I still miss him.  I want to call him but he’s at the beach.  I hope he’s thinking about me.  Tomorrow is my birthday – my 16th birthday.

I’m becoming depressed at all these entries talking about boys I merely *looked* at…the only redemption I see is that I was 11 when I wrote this.

Today we went to Sam’s then went to the Rock Hill Mall.  We passed these 2 guys (cute).  We went to Deb’s and they kept going back and forth.  Then we went to Stuart’s.  They came in and the one said, “I need to get something for my mom.”  We were like “Right”.  They did the same thing passing by.  The one was looking and Stacy waved and he waved back.  Ronnie [Stacy’s dad] came and got us and they were sitting on a bench, they followed down to Belk and I waved good-by.  Then we went to Heritage and I saw 2 other guys.  They kept looking at me.  We had no hope together, but it was fun while it lasted.  Anyway, I gotta go!

Amy

Well, last Wednesday night G and I sat and watched the video from camp and talked.  I had to leave and I got up and he pulled me back down and asked me out for Saturday.  I had to go, so I stood up and so did he.  The way he was looking at me I seriously thought if he was ever going to kiss me it would have been then.  He just hugged me and I left.  Sunday we sat together and I met his dad.  He seemed pretty cool.  Sunday night we sat together.  Afterwards we talked and then hugged goodbye.  Hold up – I totally forgot to tell you about Saturday.  We met at 2:00 and walked all around the mall.  Learning his mom is in charge of his money, he doesn’t like the kind of clothes I like on guys [I should have called it quits then and saved myself some time]- but hey, that’s okay.  At 4:00 I got something to eat and we sat until 5:00 (when I left) and talked.  I can’t even remember what we talked about.  But anyway, we’re going to the Kenny G concert together for my birthday [really?? I do NOT remember that] .  N might come.  We hugged good-bye and agreed we should do something together again.  Anyway about Sunday.  I went to go find Mom, Dad and Heather in the FLC and they were going to get ice cream at the ice cream social.  So I went back to the sanctuary and talked to G for awhile.  Tonight we sat together at Bible study and talked afterward and just hugged.  I’m going to PA Wednesday and won’t see him for at least a week.  It seems we’re really very opposite, but we get along really well.  Opposites attract I guess.  I mean he’s not ugly, he’s a Christian, he’s taking things slowly progressing, from what S says, will be a very strong and committed relationship [i have no idea what i just said, sorry].  It just seems everything is right.  Some things we don’t agree on stuff (clothes) but we can’t agree on every single little thing.  I’m really going to miss him alot.  I don’t know who we’re staying with in PA.  Meme was really sick on Sunday and Mom went down [to the altar to pray for her] in Meme’s place and Mom called Meme Monday morning and Meme said she was feeling a whole lot better.  Thank the Lord.  The hospital is doing good.  Today this guy Danny introduced himself to me during my break.  He seemed really nice.  There is this guy that looks REALLY GOOD that works there.  There’s another guy who I believe is a doctor who looks good tall and dark hair.  We kept looking at each other, but when I was leaving I think he was asking some girl out.  Well, we finally got my room redone.  It’s black and white (really cream).  I like it alot.  Anyway, I’m really glad G and I are I guess you could say starting something. S was talking to him at work on Saturday and she said every other word was Amy.  I’m glad someboy I like is respectable and likes me.  I mean C…G…P.  What do I have/can to say?  Well, I just thank God He sent somebody I can finally feel comfortable with and nothing to hide or be ashamed of.  Finally!  Keep in touch!

Not sure what year this is..some time in middle school.

Favorite color – purple

Season – summer

Actor – Tom Hanks, Patrick Swayze

Actress – Julia Roberts

Song – “Baby, Baby” by Amy Grant

Clothes – Jeans and an oversized t-shirt

Subject – math

Car – Corvette

Hobby – talking on the telephone

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Funny how some of that is still true…check out my About page for a lot of my favorites.

I ended up finding a post for yesterday and can’t find one for today so I’m posting this one.

Well, I have nowhere else to put what I’m  feeling except here.  I went to church on Sunday and sat with G both am and pm.  Monday we had bible study and a service thign about cults.  I sat with him.  Monday afterwards he asked me to go with him to the movies on Tuesday.  I was in heaven.  Monday when I got home I prayed for a dream to let me know if I was supposed to be with him or not.  I had a dream we were going out.  He called me Tuesday letting me know a friend had come into town that had moved and he was going to do something with him.  I was cool with it because I kenw I was going to go to the service that night and I could see him there.  I called N up to see if I could get a ride to the church and she was getting tires put on her car.  I got I guess you could say depressed and lied down and went to sleep for 2 hours.  I got up, ate, and went back to sleep.  I had a dream that I was with G and a couple other people and we went to go talk to someone and he just left me.  I got upset because I didn’t know why he left.  When I woke up I became upset or depressed or something.  I think I felt the dream showed or was trying to tell me that he didn’t really care about me.  All morning I’ve been depressed because I felt like when I go to church tonight he’s just going to act like he doesn’t like me and ignore me like he did the first couple of days of camp.  Now I don’t know how I feel. I keep trying to think about God and how he loves me but sometimes I think I need or I guess want someone to love me.  I know I have family and friends but I finally thought I met someone who was perfect for me.  He’s funny, kind a cute, a Christian.  It just all fits and I guess when I thought about him not liking me it hurt.  I didn’t know I liked him that much, but I guess I do.  I’m just praying he feels the same way about me.  It would be good to finally have somebody I could really like because the way they were and not because they liked me first.  That’s another thing I’m worried about.  What if he just likes me because I like him?  I don’t know.  I just need to know what he’s thinking.  I’m sort of getting tired of liking someone for nothing.  It’s sort of like when you  like a car so much and you want it so bad, but you know there’s no way you could ever have it.  [uh, yeah, like that].  I don’t want to waste my summer liking him when he’s not going to like me.  Of course, at least 3 people have told me they thought he liked me, but they don’t know what he’s thinking or feeling.  I guess he can’t hate me because he wouldn’t have asked me out if he did.  Another thing that bothers me is HF.  Monday night she was flirting all over him.  I had to tell myself that I can’t hate her.  When S like him, she would always get so upset when she would flirt with him and I never understood why she made such a big deal about it.  Now I see exactly why she got upset.  I guess it’s just insecurity.  Thinking that if she does that, he’ll start liking her.  But then again, I sort of have a right to be insecure about this whole thing.  I mean he hasn’t exactly told me he likes me.  Ughhh!  This is too stressful!

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*rolling eyes*  What was that all about?  Geesh, I think if anything, I wasted way too much worrying about all of it.  I believe we did end up going out to the movies. I remember my mom driving me up to Charlotte to his house.  Maybe we’ll get the details in a future post lol.

Still in a dry spell of no vintage posts for today, so here is another essay.  This one is from 8th grade I think.

My Dream Vacation

The beauty of the mountains became clearer as I came closer to the lake.  The air was fresh and clean with a hint of pine in it.  It wa swonderful being away from school and parents, and being in the mountains.  Just the sound of the eagle game me chils.  I saw the birds flying gracefully through the air as I sat by the lake.  When I touched the small deer that had come to me, the eagle cried out again and the deer ran away.  Sundown had approached and it was a beautiful sight.  I began a fire beside me so I could stay out a little longer.  The sun continued to slowly creep down.  The crackling of the fire got louder and it sounded like music to my ears.  My cabin awaited me for the last time as my dream vacation ended.  I put out my fire and slowly walked toward my cabin, looking at the beautiful sight one more time, smelling the pine trees, feeling comfort for the last time.  I stood in the doorway of my cabin hearing the eagle cry one more time before I packed it all up and went back to reality.

No journal post from today, this was an essay written in 6th grade.

My great-grandmother, “Me-Me”, is the most unforgettable person I have known because she is loving, helpful, generous and funny.  She has done a lot for me when I have gone up in the Appalachian Mountains, where she lives.

Me-Me is very loving because when I was a little baby she took care for me.  She said she would hug me gently all day long.  Now when I go up to Pennsylvania, she hugs me or you could say squeezes.  It really does not matter because it shows that she loves me.  When I am watching a movie and she is sitting in her chair, I get up and walk to her and sit on her lap.  When I do she hugs me gently like she did when I was little.

She is very helpful to me when I am up in Pennsylvania.  When I wake up she helps me pick out my clothes.  If I pick something out she helps me decide what looks good together.  Also, when I brush my teeth she gets my tooth brush and toothpaste.

Me-Me is generous too because when we go to the store she asks me what I want before she looks in her purse to see if she can buy me anything.  When I wake up in the morning she lets me pick out what I want to eat whether it is cereal, poptarts, waffles, or pancakes.

Me-Me is funny because when I go up there, I try to tell her something or ask a question and she answers something completely different.  We all start laughing.  She cannot hear really well, so sometimes she does things like that.  She cannot help it that she is almost deaf.

She is still loving even if she makes mistakes.  She is still loving, helpful, generous, and funny.

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That was a horribly written paper, but I miss MeMe and I still remember sitting in her lap in “her chair” and her fixing me brown sugar and cinnamon poptarts.