31 years ago I was born
29 years ago my only sibling was born
24 years ago I lived with several foster babies as siblings
11 years ago I got married
7 years ago I had my first child
5 years ago I had my second child
4 years and 358 days ago family and friends started asking when we were having another child
4 years and 358 days ago and several times since Scott said with great sarcasm he would never have another baby but I was welcome to adopt a 3 year old
3 years ago Emma started asking for a little brother
2.5 years ago I attended youth camp which featured Spur58
2 years ago I started following Aaron (Spur58’s lead singer) and Jamie Ivey’s blog
2 years ago and since then, Scott and I have been supporting Real Hope for Haiti, the place that the Ivey’s son and daughter was staying
2 years ago I started a blog that has since provided extra income each month
1 year ago and off and on I started secretly finding myself a little disappointed when I wasn’t pregnant each month
7 months ago we joined a church which had a heavy emphasis on adoption from the pastor down
2 months ago we made contact with one of our foster baby siblings
2 months ago I told my mom maybe we’d consider fostering a baby if I chose not to work after my contract ends at the end of 2010
1 month ago I watched on as our best friends adopted their first child
2 weeks ago Haiti had an earthquake
10 days ago I watched images come in, read reports from the Ivey’s of their son possibly coming home unexpectedly because of the earthquake and wondered how I could help, including adopting one of these sweet children with no home
1 week ago Life Unexpected debuted on TV, a show about a child who spent her life in foster care. A show that I started a blog about.
1 week ago Scott says seriously “We should adopt a child from Haiti” and it stopped me in my tracks
6 days ago Friday Night Lights aired an episode where a character aborted her baby. It affected me deeply and all I could think was she could have saved the baby’s life and given him/her up for adoption!
5 days ago we discuss adopting a child from Haiti with the kids. They are excited.
4 days ago I do some research and find out we may have to be 35 years old before we can begin the process
3 days ago was Sanctity of Life Sunday
3 days ago our pastor preached “God’s grace is best seen by us”
2 days ago Scott, unbeknown to me, emailed our pastor about adoption
1 day ago I listened on American Idol as a teenager talked about getting lost in foster care his whole life and just wanted to be loved and it about broke my heart. I turned to Scott and said we should adopt. He doesn’t respond.
Today Scott forwarded me the email to our pastor about adoption and I realize he’s much more serious than even I thought
Right now these things that once seem unrelated suddenly seem like a web that is being weaved.
Both of us feel a little LOT unsure and maybe like we’re going crazy. Actually Scott’s subject in his email was “HELP!!!” I asked God if we should (who have the means, desire, etc) adopt and I’m pretty sure He laughed and said that was the stupidest question I ever asked Him (paraphrasing there). Should we adopt? Pretty sure it’s all over Scripture we should take care of orphans.
This kind of scares the crap out of me. But God usually does.
As you know, this doesn’t just affect us. It will affect everyone around us. We’re not taking this lightly. We don’t want to ignore what God might have been whispering for years. But it would mean a lot of changes. A lot. And I don’t know if we’re supposed to adopt from Haiti or this is just a way for us to take a serious look at adoption in general. Or maybe this is just a bunch of random coincidences! I don’t know!
Yesterday, today and tomorrow God knows so please pray He shows us clearly what (or what not) to do.